Coffee!

So I had a bunch of coffee this morning, and I'm feeling quite chipper. I have lots to say. Hopefully I will get to say it all before the coffee wears out.

Anywho, I got my mark for my midterm in developmental bio yesterday (online), and I did surprisingly well, considering I thought I failed. The test was mulitple-multiple choice, so there were more than 1 correct answers, but you had to choose all of the correct answers, or else you got zero (no part marks). So anyway, it was beyond hard. I went to that class today, and got my test back. I actually failed? Weird, what's going on? Turns out EVERYONE failed, and the prof was like, "oh...maybe this system is too difficult" and then gave everyone 10 free marks! Cool!

I have decided something very awesome. Compliments are just the greatest things. I love compliments...who doesn't? So, I've decided to compliment strangers, starting at 1 a day, and then moving up to 2 and then 3 and so on (until maybe 8? That's a lot!). And I'm also going to compliment people I know as well (as many as possible). It can be kinda awkward, but I love getting compliments from random people, eg when I'm buying things: Nice wallet! Gee, thanks!! It's good to know that someone appreciates my wallet like I do. So, anyway, yesterday I complimented a girl on her glasses and today I told a girl I liked her shoes. Both responses were skeptical and less enthusiastic than I had hoped, but I think that's because people generally keep compliments to themselves, and people aren't used to accepting them, you know?

I also love listening in on people's convos. AND I love when something weird happens, but you're by yourself, and surrounded by strangers, and you all just give each other understanding looks.

This morning on the overstuffed bus, I overheard this convo:
Guy: Man, I'm falling all over the place!
Bus driver: Oh, is it my driving?
Guy: No, no. It's just that when I stand on buses I tend to roll around like a puppy in a moving vehicle.

Well said, Guy. I laughed, as I too felt like a puppy on a moving vehicle.

I would just like to point out, that finding complete journal articles for free online is extremely difficult. Just sayin'.

Man, you know what are cool? Dinosaurs. Dinosaurs are just awesome. When I was little (like, 3 and 4 years old), I wanted to be a "dinosaur scientist". Just recently, I remembered why. BECAUSE DINOS ARE COOL! My bf disagrees, but whatever! I predict that he will be eaten by one. Anyway, just think about it...dinos...huge lizards. And some with big back legs and tiny useless arms. How did those tiny arms even develope? Also, interesting fact: pterodactyls and other flying lizards did not evolve into birds, as one would predict. It was the T-rex and Brontosaurus (now re-named Apatosaurus) (the entire group is named Saurischian Dinosaurs) that became our modern day birds. Weird! (Or I suppose dinos didn't evolve into anything, and birds were just there already OR dinos never existed in the first place, according to our Creationist friends). Anywho, maybe I should get into paleontology?

Ok, that was a good bloogage for me. Adios!

Excited for Life Again!

H'ok. How is everyone doing today?

So, school started. Awful. I'm already super behind in EVERYTHING! Today, while trying to study, I made a chart depicting my productivity vs. time. It's pretty great, wish I could show it to you.

My sleeping has become really strange. I'm doing things in my sleep that I am (clearly) unaware of. Example: Last week, I changed the time on my clock forward a few hours. I was very confused when I awoke at 10...it was actually 7? Also, I keep incorporating the sound of my alarm into my dreams. Last night, I had a dream where there were outfits strewn about, and everytime my alarm went off, I discarded one of the outfits. That's weird. But anyway, it's becoming a promblem, as I keep waking up late, and then missing my 8:30 class.

Also, also...I lost both my bunny and my doggy in the last month ...that's just so sad!

What else can I say...work is good. I like making fun of people. Just thought I would add that there.

I like the song Australia by the Shins...

People Are Rude

So, recently I've had a few experiences with random strangers that have annoyed me. I guess this is more of a rant.

1) I was at a health and safety meeting for work, and the meeting included my store's employees, along with KW's and Cambridge's stores employees. Most of the employees were teenagers and they continued to interupt the general manager and talk amongst themselves throughout the meeting. It was super annoying. At one point, the general manager asked me a question, and my response was "Yes, I just did it yesterday". The kid beside me scoffs, "Good for you". Uhm...excuse me? How rude! I wanted to slap him, but refrained from doing so, and just gave him a dirty glare instead. Stupid kid.

2) It was a busy day at the store, and I was rushing to take orders and serve costumers their meal at the same time. As I was scurrying around, I ran up to the cash register to take another order from a middle aged woman. "Hi, what can I get you?" I asked. Meanwhile, the lady decides this is prime time for a phone call. She put the phone to her ear and held up one finger at me "Hold on," she mouthed. Uh...no...sorry, the world does not revolve around you. There is a line up behind you, and I have to get people their food, so I can't stand around and wait for you to tell your husband, "I'm at the mall...yeah, just ordering fries...where are you?" I just walked away and then came back when she was done her call. Grr...

3) I was walking home from work one day and crossing through the park. It was dark, seeing as the time was 9:30-ish. A group of teenagers were walking perpendicular to me and I crossed in front of them. Then, I heard from behind me, "Hey, are you a girl? ...Hey! ...YO!" I just ignored them and kept walking. This isn't the first time that has happened to me either. For some reason immature teens feel the need to heckle me. Why? I just don't get it. Just leave me alone, there is no reason to yell random stuff at me. I always ignore them, because what they're looking for is a reaction.

4) Just today, as I was walking home from work, a guy and his girlfriend were just behind me near the mall. I still had my uniform on and the guy says sarcastically, "Haha, nice shirt" and the gf chuckled along. I ignored him, but what I wanted to say was, "Did I ask for your opinion on my uniform? No, I didn't. Now why don't you go home and be a jerk to your girlfriend, which I'm sure she doesn't mind because she seems like one of those ditsy 'blondes' that fall for douches like you."

Stay tuned for more annoying situations with rude, self-centered people!

My thoughts, my thoughts...

Ah...it's been so long. I think my mind is more creative and ready to be shelled out when I'm stressed.

School is so soon. Summer school didn't really count for me. But then again, this summer didn't count as a summer for me because I was in school. I'm confused. Anyway, I can't tell if I always put a negative amount of effort into school or if it was just this summer. One thing I did learn is that I can put minimal amount of work into a course and still pass. Not a good thing to know.

I have begun work again, after almost year of not working at all. It's weird. I like earning money, but work is gross, actually I don't mind it. For some reason I always get stressed out during the hours leading up to my shift. When I get there, I'm fine.

I would like to add that in the past few days I have bought the following items:
- jeans
- t-shirt
- tank top
- shoes
- shoes (yeah, two pairs)
- large mixing bowl
- socks
- sweater
- scarf
- earrings
- necklace
BUT, I only spent $27. Nice work, Vanessa.

Life With No Money

Sometimes I like to go to stores' websites and shop. I go through their catelogue, or whatever and put the things I want in my "cart" and pretend to buy things. Haha.

Lately, I've been buying my lunches with dimes. And by dimes I mean ridiculous amounts of dimes. It's sad almost...but I feel like I'm not spending money, because you never really consider pennies and nickels and dimes in your total amount of money that you own.

Also, when you're poor, people like to give you things/cash/food and then say, "Don't worry about it! You're poor, so you need it". Well, thanks! I enjoy mooching off of people without the guilt attached. Plus I get free things.

I Hate Life Drama

First off, I would like to correct something from my last post. As my one friend and fellow blogger (hehe) pointed out, I sounded really selfish. That's not what I meant at all. And I think I've changed my mind on that advice anyway. So...disregard that piece of advice.

A lot of weird things have been going on lately that have made me upset, and I am totally not used to it. Drama. I'm not used to all this drama. Somehow I managed to find myself in the middle of a crappy soap opera, and I'm the character that keeps getting hurt. Things keep happening that I'm completely new at, and I don't know how to deal, or how I should be feeling. Should I be insanely mad? Am I justified in yelling at someone? Was what they did really that bad? I DUNNO!

Oh Hey!

Heeey, I'm back. Apparently my mind took a bit of a break. Lot's of random unexpected things happened since I last posted.

1) I confronted that one someone! Yay! So that's done...
2) I made new friends! It kind of branched off from #1, which is handy. It's like 2 for 1! Bonus! Anyway, yeah, my new friends are super awesome! Opinions are similar, and so are our senses of humour, so all is great! I think I already mentioned that in my last post, but...I forgot...and it's too late now.
3) I wiped out hardcore today! I was walking with my (new) friends and I pointed to a branch on a tree that was about 8 feet high, and said, "Do you think I could reach that?" They both said "Yeah" so I jumped. I failed to see the curb before I jumped, however, and I hit the curb, and fell down really slowly, it was weird. I get to wear a bandaid, which is a major bonus! But the significance of this fall, is that I didn't get embarrassed! (Ok, maybe just a little bit) I just laughed it off! This is so unlike me! Usually when I fall, I laugh, but in a sheepish "Oh shutup, [person I'm with]! I don't want to talk about it". But this was an actual laughing at myself laugh. And then all day, all I could picture was me falling and looking ridiculous, so I would burst out laughing again (in class, it was awkward).

I've also learned something very important from a friend of mine. He always tells me to do 2 things: Not be indicisive, and to do things only for yourself, and not anyone else. The making decisions thing is hard, but it actually feels good sometimes to just be like "We are going to Tim Horton's, so there" instead of spending 20 minutes worrying that if you suggest something the other person won't like it, etc, etc. It saves time, and, I don't know...it's good to not lie and be like "I don't care". Because sometimes I do care, but I say I don't so that someone else can decide for me. And the second advice, to do things for yourself: this is good advice! Stop worrying and doing things for other people, just because it will please them. I'm still a pushover though...haha.

AND! I planted my garden! Yay!

Sittin' Waitin' Wishin'

I love being outside. It's nice. Trees are cool. Anyway, that's where I am right now. I'm just waiting to meet someone.

Anyway, that was mostly pointless.

So, I made one or two new friends! Yay! One is my biochem lab partner and she is pretty cool.

Also, I'm really confused by something. Ooh, I don't know if I can even explain it on here. It's about a person that I just met like, a week ago, and we hang out sooooo much. We do things that I don't think normal friends do. If you are curious, and want to know more... (Becca), just ask. Maybe you can make me unconfused.

I really really need a job. Stupid economy. Everyone, you must start buying stuff! If you stop buying things, the economy will only get worse, so buy stuff!!! All the stores are cutting back on hours and stuff, and firing people, because they don't have as many costumers. Now, people like me can't get a job, so I stop buying stuff. Ugh! It's terrible! How am I supposed to afford things like food?

So, my day usually consists of this:
1) Wake up an hour before class (class starts at 9:30 on Mon., Wed., Fri., and at 11:30 on Tues., Thurs.)
2) Bike to campus, go to class
3) Hang around campus, depends if I have more class
4) Bike to my friend's house, hang out there for awhile
5) Bike home, eat
6) Laze around, or sometimes people come visit me
7) At around 10 or 11, depending on when I have to get up, I go to bed

Good story, Vanessa. That was extremely entertaining. Shut up, you know it was.

I find it weird when I see my old TAs around campus. I can't tell if they remember me, or maybe not. I have had a lot of TAs though, so sometimes I have to think really hard as to which subject they TA-ed me in.

God! I am so boring right now!

Sorry, I don't have any thoughts that are contradictory to what most people think right now.

This is the end.

Update

Oh hey. So, suddenly, I have become very excited about life. I can't explain it, it's just really weird. All because of a friend. He really...opened my eyes. I hate that expression, but I can't think of how else to say it.

Anyway, yeah, I have totally been all miserable and avoiding conflict and stuff like that, but NO MORE! I have totally decided to think positively and all that optimistic stuff. Yay!

I made a list of missions to complete, and I call the list Operation, Vanessa is Awesome:

1) Confront someone, and tell them what's bothering me instead of sucking it up and then complaining about the situation to everyone

2) Make new friends in my classes

3) Personally hand in resumes like crazy

4) Realize I am really cool

I need to think of more things.

I would also like to take this time to say that I really dislike cliches and people who use them all the time as if they made them up. Things like "play it by ear" and other things like that. Seriously, use your own words.

Blech

Hi again. I have decided something revolutionary. I have decided to overcome a few of my strange and stupid fears. Here is my exceptional list:

1) I am afraid of the dark if I am by myself: slowly, I am overcoming this through living on my own. Hopefully after awhile, I won't have to turn off the lights and then book it upstairs so fast that I trip and then I think someone is eating me and I freak out...yeah, hopefully that will discontinue in the near future.

2) Talking to strangers (i.e.: ordering food at restaurants): this is just ridiculous and needs to stop. But my fear is so huge, you have no idea. For instance, whenever I call strangers to ask for things like internet and stuff, as soon as I hang up the phone I burst into tears. Haha! I am so lame! But yeah, I'm not sure what to do for this one.

3) The city in general: I hate taking the bus (unless it's the 55 - l'autobus cinquanta-cinque!), and I have never once in my 9 months of living here, pulled the chord thingy on the bus! (I could have had a baby in that time). But, that is hopefully going to change tonight. Also, I was scared of biking in the city, but I biked today! I biked to the campus and back. Yay! And nobody stole my tires! BONUS!

4) Commitment: also known as dating. Haha! I don't know what else to say other than, this sucks!

5) I am positive that I had more fears than this. I guess another would be travelling, but that's just because I have never really done it.

Yup! I am on my way to becoming virtually fearless!