Life With No Money

Sometimes I like to go to stores' websites and shop. I go through their catelogue, or whatever and put the things I want in my "cart" and pretend to buy things. Haha.

Lately, I've been buying my lunches with dimes. And by dimes I mean ridiculous amounts of dimes. It's sad almost...but I feel like I'm not spending money, because you never really consider pennies and nickels and dimes in your total amount of money that you own.

Also, when you're poor, people like to give you things/cash/food and then say, "Don't worry about it! You're poor, so you need it". Well, thanks! I enjoy mooching off of people without the guilt attached. Plus I get free things.

I Hate Life Drama

First off, I would like to correct something from my last post. As my one friend and fellow blogger (hehe) pointed out, I sounded really selfish. That's not what I meant at all. And I think I've changed my mind on that advice anyway. So...disregard that piece of advice.

A lot of weird things have been going on lately that have made me upset, and I am totally not used to it. Drama. I'm not used to all this drama. Somehow I managed to find myself in the middle of a crappy soap opera, and I'm the character that keeps getting hurt. Things keep happening that I'm completely new at, and I don't know how to deal, or how I should be feeling. Should I be insanely mad? Am I justified in yelling at someone? Was what they did really that bad? I DUNNO!

Oh Hey!

Heeey, I'm back. Apparently my mind took a bit of a break. Lot's of random unexpected things happened since I last posted.

1) I confronted that one someone! Yay! So that's done...
2) I made new friends! It kind of branched off from #1, which is handy. It's like 2 for 1! Bonus! Anyway, yeah, my new friends are super awesome! Opinions are similar, and so are our senses of humour, so all is great! I think I already mentioned that in my last post, but...I forgot...and it's too late now.
3) I wiped out hardcore today! I was walking with my (new) friends and I pointed to a branch on a tree that was about 8 feet high, and said, "Do you think I could reach that?" They both said "Yeah" so I jumped. I failed to see the curb before I jumped, however, and I hit the curb, and fell down really slowly, it was weird. I get to wear a bandaid, which is a major bonus! But the significance of this fall, is that I didn't get embarrassed! (Ok, maybe just a little bit) I just laughed it off! This is so unlike me! Usually when I fall, I laugh, but in a sheepish "Oh shutup, [person I'm with]! I don't want to talk about it". But this was an actual laughing at myself laugh. And then all day, all I could picture was me falling and looking ridiculous, so I would burst out laughing again (in class, it was awkward).

I've also learned something very important from a friend of mine. He always tells me to do 2 things: Not be indicisive, and to do things only for yourself, and not anyone else. The making decisions thing is hard, but it actually feels good sometimes to just be like "We are going to Tim Horton's, so there" instead of spending 20 minutes worrying that if you suggest something the other person won't like it, etc, etc. It saves time, and, I don't know...it's good to not lie and be like "I don't care". Because sometimes I do care, but I say I don't so that someone else can decide for me. And the second advice, to do things for yourself: this is good advice! Stop worrying and doing things for other people, just because it will please them. I'm still a pushover though...haha.

AND! I planted my garden! Yay!